im not a kind of person that holding on hopes and people.
i dont hoping much because the dissapointment has made some deal to not haunting me everytime hopes blew me away before it crash me down.
but now im traped in a things that grows my hope and makes me holding on them to say what i really hope it was happen..
and i realize that im not that brave to face that feeling..
im afraid to lose..
but my subsconcious illusions show me what i really want to see...
but still i...